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Post-Jordanism: noun- The artistic (cultural?) movement which began in late 2011. Works within this deal with themes of existential crisis, identity crisis, posttraumatic stress disorder, the state of being broken, intrusive thoughts of (non)existent(?) memory, the morbid preoccupation with suicide, grief, uncontrollable emotion, and darkness as a simple abstract concept. ex. 1: "Kill me."

Friday, April 13, 2012

Remorse Code

This is why I analyze things all the time, why I try to be (keyword "try") as cold and logical as I can, and most of all, why I despise and avoid all instances of competition.

Congrats, people who saw that.. blog I took down. You've met the side of me I've been afraid of this whole time. ^^;;; That's the side of me that will probably come out during some sort of climax in OH GOD THE RAPTURE IS BURNING, like, say, the finale of Act III. That is, that's the side of me that I wish I could harness just for storytelling purposes. But writing isn't that simple.

Isn't it interesting how Rapture always tends to be the good story in all this and Jordan Eats Normally Now always tends to be the gross older sibling? DCA was the awesome and nicely-balanced oldest sibling, Rapture was the bouncy and energetic and kinky youngest sibling, and Jordan Eats is just the red-headed stepchild. No offense to red-headed stepchildren out there. Just saying.

..I feel like Dave Wong in John Dies at the End. Except a little less crazy. Or maybe a little more, depends on how you look at it.

I'm sorry, people. I'm sorry people had to see that. Not this post; this post is actually pretty decent. I mean.. the noodle incident, the incident that I want to remain just a noodle incident.

Sorry.

2 comments:

  1. I was wondering where the post went.

    Don't feel ashamed about a piece of writing that doesn't work - if it's too personal or not personal enough or if you think it's just not good, compared to your other works. I hate most of my early writings, but they were part of how I evolved as a writer - I couldn't write now if I didn't write crap back then. And believe me, Jordan Eats Normally Now is not crap. It is very good. Not on par with Rapture, but still: you did it how you wanted to do it. That's all we can really do with our writing - write what we want to write and hope it comes out like it is in our heads.

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  2. It was less of that and more of "I was writing for all the wrong reasons." It gave me insight and ideas for things, though, and I have the feeling I may try to bring it back with a bit.. better of a plan.

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