Post-Jordanism: noun- The artistic (cultural?) movement which began in late 2011. Works within this deal with themes of existential crisis, identity crisis, posttraumatic stress disorder, the state of being broken, intrusive thoughts of (non)existent(?) memory, the morbid preoccupation with suicide, grief, uncontrollable emotion, and darkness as a simple abstract concept. ex. 1: "Kill me."

Saturday, March 31, 2012

DJay32 Listens: Animals, Pink Floyd

I have yet to actually see someone start a blog with "Hello, my name is ____ and my favourite colour is ____."

Methinks some people simply don't know how to give advice.

In other "news," I decided to give Pink Floyd another try. I mean. They're... not bad. I don't.. dislike them. But their work really isn't my thing, with the exceptions of some stuff off Meddle, as well as all of Animals. I'll always love Animals. But that's because those albums are more focused on the instrumentation, relatively speaking. They certainly actually have interesting instrumental parts. And hell, Waters' voice on Animals actually sounds-- dare I say it-- passionate about something for once.

I complain about Pink Floyd a lot, but you gotta understand, there's a hugely complicated set of reasons why I don't like them. It's a lot like my relationship with Homestuck, except I admit I greatly enjoy Homestuck.

But how about I start by saying what I like about them? Here's Animals, song by song.

"Pigs on the Wing, pt. 1" is a short little acoustic love song introducing us to this allegorical world of animals. It's simple, it's a little boring, but it's a bookend and it's actually a really nice introduction, as its allegorical nature isn't anywhere near as strong as the rest of the album's.

"Dogs" is just... god, man. This song surprised the shit out of me. It's a seventeen-minute trip telling us about the 'dogs,' representative of the middle class and authoritative figures in a capitalist structure. That's another thing! Animals is an allegory for capitalism. And I have many problems with capitalism, myself. The thing is, as much as I complain about Pink Floyd and Roger Waters, I think I agree with Waters on a lot of political matters. Hell if Pink Floyd didn't influence a lot of my views wait wait wait wait FUCKING GUITAR LINE.

Yeah, that's another thing. Animals is a very instrument-oriented album. There's a ton of focus on long-winded instrumental passages, much guitar riffage in there, much variation, much catchiness, and I really fucking love it. It's a lot like Genesis and King Crimson. And unlike The Dark Side of the Moon, Animals actually has likable instrumental passages. Like, with The Dark Side of the Moon, it feels like they're just playing to let the audience relax, and like they have some clear time limit. I mean, the album's only half a fucking hour long. But Animals, it feels like they've thrown away any time constraints they might have thought they had, and like they've grown a pair in terms of musical composition. It probably helps that they had been building on "Dogs" and "Sheep" ever since before they even did Wish You Were Here, so they had plenty of time to develop them and make them well-fleshed and.. god, man, I'm sorry. I'm listening to it as I'm talking about it, and I just... love it.

And they fucking play with so much in here. They don't just come up with interesting riffs, because that would just be arbitrary. They come up with a riff and play with it. They spend instrumental passages just taking concepts and bending them beyond recognition, and when it sounds like something else entirely, they reintroduce earlier motifs and make it clear that they know what they're doing.

Oh my god, I'm actually talking about Pink Floyd. I felt like I was talking about Between the Buried and Me or something there. And what more, I really like Roger Waters' voice here. WAIT WAIT WAIT REPRISAL, GOD YES. D'okay, that song's over.

"Pigs (Three Different Ones)" is the center of the album, the heart of the problems with capitalism, and putting it in the center was a smart decision, as pigs also bookend the album. This song starts with one nice little proggy keyboard ostinato before segueing into a relatively.. boring and repetitive verse/chorus system. D: Catchy lyrics, though, so there's that. Now, in this animal system of capitalism, pigs represent the upper class rich folk who cause the problems.

BUT. After the second chorus, this song gets orgasmic. We get one cynical and catchy country-esque riff for a few minutes. And then a nice reprisal of the intro, and then another boring verse and chorus. AND THEN A NICE LITTLE GUITAR SOLO. And then it fades into one of Pink Floyd's most famous songs.

"Sheep!" "Sheep" is a fantastic little ditty talking about the lower-class, oppressed and fooled. It has one of the best bass lines in Pink Floyd's whole discography, which is saying quite a lot. The song starts out with a peppy keyboard intro as the bass fades in, and AND AND THOSE VOCALS BLENDING SEAMLESSLY INTO KEYBOARD TRILLS, THE FUCK. @w@ Again, Waters actually seems emotional here. AND IT TURNS INTO ONE HELL OF A shut the fuck up people oh my god ONE HELL OF AN INSTRUMENTAL SECTION WITH MORE GREAT BASS.

Turns into a chromatic progression before giving us one nice little mini-climax which unexpectedly switches riiight back to the ambient bass. But this time with even more keyboard intervals! In the background, we get the baa-ing of sheep as some Bible verse is quoted. Then it transitions into another verse-- BUT THESE ARE NICE VERSES. :D "Have you heard the news? The dogs are dead! You'd better stay home and do as your told, don't go out on the road if you want to grow old." And then we have a super-peppy guitar riff to end the song to.

"Pigs on a Wing, pt. 2" is pretty much the exact same as the first part, but with a couple different lyrics. Taking us out of this animal world by bringing us back to our issues of love and all that jazz.

Well, I'm really busy all of a sudden, so I'm gonna cut this post short here.

Basically, I like Pink Floyd but their more popular works really aren't for me.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

The Extremely-Abridged Summary of Dark Chao Adventures, up to Episode 85

I need a place to just randomly talk about DCA. Because god, I want to.

Spoilers abound. If you plan on reading this show eventually, you might want to take caution.

So. What is happening at the current point in the story? Why is Episode 85 the last episode? ..god, get.. get ready, 'cause this plot isn't gonna be pretty.

For the first three seasons, we have the main protagonists established. We meet the chao, the Dark chao, the Hero chao, the rare Neutral guys. We meet the Poker Gang-- Metal Sonic, Mecha Knuckles, and the Tails Doll. Indirectly, you meet me, the writer. I make a lot of pretty damn bad mistakes. I break the fourth wall sometimes. I introduce the concept of "the future is terrifying" and time travel and meeting the chao's future selves. Shade is the main Dark chao to focus on for now, though.

Then we meet an oddity. We meet The Beta Avengers, comprised of four malevolent figures: The MILKMAN, JOE, Echo, and Tagliare. These guys are from an abandoned arc from a beta version of the second season, and they come into the proper series wanting to avenge all these abandoned arcs and ideas. The MILKMAN foreshadows that the sixth season will be really fucking crazy.

For the fourth season, we are introduced to another key element of the story: Chao Talk. It's a city, a horribly eldritch city based off Turrican's secretcity maps in Sven Co-op. The chao get lost there for a season, dying a lot and wondering how the hell they can get back to their homes. They get home, the MILKMAN strikes, they fight back and hold him off. And then it turns out Echo's spying on them, ominously flying over their homes.

The fifth season's just the chao trying to live normal lives as they know the Beta Avengers have something huge planned, and they know the sixth season is right around that corner. And Echo's making them anxious. And then during the finale, Shade is kidnapped and crazy stuff. Their homes are bombed. The Beta Avengers pretty much wage war on the protagonists entirely, and the sixth season begins.

SHORTLY BEFORE THE SIXTH SEASON, there is a bonus feature-length script about the chao waking up in Chao Talk again and doing an eldritch ontological mystery. It introduces Dark's father, Wilson Constable Kilburn, who is a complete monstrosity and comprised of, like.. blood and spider parts and shit, and he foreshadows the recurring motif of bad relationships with fathers. They are able to leave, and Dark gets a letter from his father basically saying "You will come back to Chao Talk again, har har har cryptic eldritch shit"

The sixth season consists of Shade going on a very long adventure, collecting seven chaos drives as a bit of a Fridge Brilliance pun on chaos emeralds, gaining power, becoming a Dark/Swim chao, and then challenging each member of the Beta Avengers. He defeats Tagliare (going by the pseudonym "Rage Tail"), bests Echo, outsmarts JOE, and then challenges the MILKMAN one-on-one. The MILKMAN turns out to be Shade's father, introducing the motif of odd relationships with fathers in the show. JOE turns out to be a Dalek and then turns out to be a chao who died in the very first episode and then turns out to be Metal Speedy, another abandoned character from the betas. Shade fixes all the plot holes he can think of, the Beta Avengers shut up, and all is well.

Season Seven starts off with the chao having wacky adventures, playing with presidential elections, playing with Jim Crow laws, playing with 9/11, all in all revealing that they're bored as hell, that Shade misses having epic adventures. I foreshadow tons of stuff after the 9/11 episode, saying in an epilogue that "DCA can never be over as long as he is still alive," and things seem to go quiet.

And here's where it gets complicated.

Shade does Metal Gear Solid 2, does the Tanker bit. He's introduced to this mysterious Levity Nite character. He's seemingly killed, goes missing for two years. In those two years, his rival Chao takes over the Dark Garden, in essence becoming a Dark Chaos Chao, which Shade grows to loathe and envy, but that's later. In those two years, everyone is certain Shade is dead. It's basically just MGS2. And the rest of MGS2 happens two in-story years later, as a green Dark chao named Shadow who was just a random minor character in all the seasons up until now becomes the main protagonist. Yes, The Scrappy becomes the main protagonist.

Shadow does MGS2's Plant bit in its entirety. The Patriots are revealed to be this strange group calling themselves The Veteran's Committee, except they want to end DCA. Shadow knows he has to stop them. MGS2 ends, and.. even more stuff happens, god, I can't even fucking begin.

Shadow and Shade come out of it alive, basically, and return to the gardens and meet up with Dark and Red, two other main protagonists from the sixth season and stuff, and they're all summoned to the Space-Time Rip beyond the planet of pure Dooky (STR) which was introduced in Episode 12, where the Daleks introduced in season three tell them the Veteran's Committee are seriously trying to end the show and basically, Shadow has to collect seven chaos drives of his own to become a Dark/Run chao so he and Shade can work together and stop them because they are way more powerful and risky than the Beta Avengers ever were.

They are sent to the future, where they go through Half-Life 2 except Doctor Breen is Doctor Eggman who finally got sick of not being taken seriously so he grew a pair and took over the world, thus introducing the concept of growing the beard. We are introduced to a few more members of the Veteran's Committee: Levity Nite, and Echo (formerly a Beta Avenger). They have some scenes of malevolent ominous talking as the chao have some scenes of fun stuff I dunno. Eventually, in the climax, Shadow defeats Metal Sonic, because Metal Sonic has also been a recurring antagonist throughout and I forgot to mention, and Eggman reveals he will give up complete control of the world if it means he can become a member of the Veteran's Committee.

And then Echo, playing the part of the G-Man, saves the protagonists from the explosion at the end of the game, and proposes a proposition: "Work with us. You have no choice." He then tells them the location of another chaos drive and sends them off.

The protagonists go to an eerie highway and meet the slender man and stuff except they don't even properly comprehend what they're looking at, but this is super foreshadowing stuff. Levity Nite tells them the next chaos drive is in Bioshock, basically, so they go and start doing that underwater and stuff. And that's when it turns out they were never underwater in the first place; they're in Chao Talk. Dark freaks out because he remembers the letter and stuff, and they're all sad.

And then the Veteran's Committee pull them out and say "DCA's been around for five years, go celebrate or some shit, also there's a chaos drive in your home so go get it" and then it turns out they were lying and Shade's father is sick with a sickness that turns out to be him regressing and turning back into the MILKMAN but it's really complicated, and Cham becomes JOE again, and Echo becomes.. well, Echo again, and.. shit, BUT THEY DON'T KNOW THIS YET, it just looks like people disappearing and dying and shit to them. And then references to the earlier seasons. AND THEN they go back to Chao Talk and finish what they started, Shadow meets his father and his father's one of the Veteran's Committee, Shadow gets his chaos drive, they get the hell out of dodge.

The fourth chaos drive is in the eldritch forest of Sancheria, which the chao go to on Halloween. They spend a full night in a rather Metroid-esque disturbing landscape with all kinds of what the fuck, the slender man shows up but you have to be paying really fucking good attention to even know when he's there, there are giant spiders and chao with no faces and waking up from dreams to find out you were never asleep, subways full of horses, and we're introduced to the recurring motif of Ulysses. Ulysses is an allegory for me, the writer, for shit going on in my life. Bad shit.

Meanwhile, the Poker Gang goes through Nightmare House 2 to get the fifth chaos drive while the chao are working, to get the job done quicker and stuff, and that goes horribly and they get split up even more and then SPOILERS, the leader of the Veteran's Committee shows up to save 'em. The leader is Shadow's future self, yes, as I said, the future is a recurring motif in this. But the reader doesn't know this is Future Shadow; they think he's regular Shadow, it's not revealed until season eight. And basically, the Poker Gang lies and says they can't find the chaos drive, so the Veteran's Committee decides to let them go and stop working for them but secretly they have the drive and start looking for Shadow to help him.

And here, the chao have to go through a very surreal adventure through prog stories to find the city of New York and.. and.. stop this Butterfly Collector guy who's one of the Veteran's Committee and stop the Gatekeepers who are an allegory for social services, and.. there's parts where the Veterans actually talk to me, the Writing Writer as I'm called, and I reveal that I'm only writing DCA to escape from my life, and the Veterans say "Believer, you'll leave [them] in leaving them all" and.. basically, they want me to stop writing DCA so I can move on with my life. But I want to write an ending, at the very least. So I write on. And I tell the protagonists this and they agree to, at least, help me with the ending if it means they can have peace in their lives as well with no more Veteran's Committee.

And that's when the Beta Avengers show up!

Sigh. Season Eight.

So Shadow is attacked by Echo and all his chaos drives are stolen. AND THEN the hiatus happens. I write Fear Mythos stuff, I put DCA on hold from May 2011 until, like, March of 2012. And as we've already established, DCA has no fourth wall. By the time I get back to writing, the chao have almost lost all hope and don't even fucking care about shit, they just want to end the show so when I forget about DCA, they can be left in a happy state. The Veteran's Committee then comes clean, Future Shadow reveals himself, and they say "This is what we have been trying to say from the beginning. Will you help us end the show?" And the protagonists agree.

They have a conversation with me which results in me spilling the last of the Ulysses story, and I tell them that basically, to end Dark Chao Adventures, they have to defeat the main source of conflict, the characters that have been causing trouble for the duration of pretty much the whole show. They have to defeat the Beta Avengers for once and for all. So they agree to it and go face the Beta Avengers one-on-one.

But something's changed. The Beta Avengers are tired of being rather shitty characters, as.. they kinda were; I was much younger when I made them. They demand respect, so they grow they beard just as Eggman did, just as this entire show did. Tagliare becomes a chao hybrid of betas and The Archangel, Echo stays Echo because I actually did develop his character well, JOE becomes a hybrid of betas and The Wooden Girl except.. male, and the MILKMAN stays what he has always been: The predecessor to The Beast. He is a creature no character can fully grasp the appearance of. They can make out a dark-red color scheme and occasionally green eyes, maybe some hands, maybe a mouth, but never anything definite.

And what more, the Beta Avengers are strong. They are no longer motivated by avenging some silly betas. Now they just want revenge for being treated so shoddily in the series, for being treated badly in the character creation process, for being just cast aside and having elements of them used in my other stories. They can bend the script to their will; they have always had this power, but they really start to take advantage of it.

But two can play at that. The chao finally become the characters they had been developing towards all along. Shade becomes the mentor, the middleman between pre-Season Seven Shade and Future Shade. Dark becomes the insecure buddy who wants respect even if he's not the brightest bulb in the box. Red becomes the smart guy who analyzes things properly and makes sense of the insanity of the show. Shadow becomes the foil for the entire show. He is the personification of growing the beard, of doing the hard work necessary for making a story respectable. He is given a trilby and a purple scarf, and he is properly represented as a messiah.

What more, the chao and the Veteran's Committee finally crack the Octavarium Code present in the majority of my works. I'll just pull this straight from the script:

Chao: I want to get something straight.
Red: Ask away.
Chao: Why haven't we just.. killed [the Beta Avengers]?
Shade: That's.. difficult to explain. For one thing, they're extremely formidable figures. For another thing, we're certain they have much planned.
Red: And ultimately, whatever happens in this story is up to the Writing Writer. But DJay doesn't want to help until all the pieces are set.
Chao: And what does that mean?
ShadeF: It means we haven't reached the right episode yet. We're only on Episode 82, and we still have elements to introduce for the final battle.
Chao: How do you know 82 isn't the last episode?
Shadow: It's a matter of arc numbers, Chao.
Chao: I thought DCA's arc number was 32.
Shade: DCA doesn't really have an arc number, although that's probably a good guess if it had one. Eight and five, see, recur in DJay's works a lot these days. We think they only refer to the end.
Shadow: I think 8 and 5 are IT.
Red: You think, when a story begins to end, the numbers eight and five begin to creep in? And that when it ends, the eight and the five are all that's left?
Shadow: Pretty much. The eight and the five are there to link DJay's stories together. They are the numerical representation of cycles and music.
Chao: So. So are you saying Episode 85 will be the last episode because of the numbers, alone?
Shadow: I'd wager a guess that DJay actually wasn't intending that, but he realized the numbers were there.
So yeah, 8 and 5 represent the end. They represent cycles and they represent the end of a cycle, or the point in a cycle where it ends and loops. This is evident in Built For Two, as the first post, made at 8:05 AM, is technically also one of the endings of the story. In Rapture, 8 and 5 are coming up more and more because the end is coming closer and closer. And in DCA, 8 and 5 started really showing up in season seven, because that season properly introduced the concept of the show ending.

What happens next, uh. The collective protagonists decide Shadow needs seven chaos drives, as it's one of the precursors the Writing Writer set for how to end the show. So they decide Shadow needs to find two drives and then he should re-steal his original five from Echo. But then it turns out the Beta Avengers are not only growing further in power, but they've stationed themselves in Chao Talk, which is also where a buttload of chaos drives have been detected.

For reference: Chao Talk was a terrifying place where everything operated on an entirely different set of laws before any chaos drives entered the picture. One chaos drive gave it the power to obfuscate an entire planet's laws of physics and drive its inhabitants insane. And now there are a lot of chaos drives there and an eldritch set of Beta Avengers who can bend the script with more skill than most of the protagonists combined.

And then the Beta Avengers start taking elements from my other works. The Camper Festival appears, complete with EAT.

So finally, the protagonists decide "Okay, we need to go to Chao Talk and do one last adventure to put an end to this show for once and for all."

And just after they leave, Future Shadow reveals to the reader that the forest of Sancheria is also involved in this somehow. Just for dramatic suspense.

That's where we are now. Episode 85 will be a feature-length script, and it will end everything. It's not going to be easy to write, but goddammit, I'm gonna have fun with it.

Any questions? :D

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

"Rael is alone"

Here's another gem from my notebook. Back before I went back to America, I had this little thing. It was a chart. See those lines? They're tally marks. The thick L-ish things are there to organize things. I'll give you a hint: Each tally mark represents a day. After a while, I got sick of counting, so I scribbled that ending there. "It will never end."

Luckily, around then, I went back to America. ....hahahahahahahahahahaaaaa. And now I'm back. I'm kinda glad I didn't keep tallying the bad days in America.

The thing is, though, that this is almost like I'm some half-assed slenderblogger with a notebook I just recently found, and eventually we're gonna start coming to the pages littered with Operator symbols. I have those, yeah, but those were me trying to obsess over things to remain sane.

In a way, you could say this is an EAT notebook. I drowned in my obsessions, and you could say that it was the reason I was hated in America.

Hopefully, now you can see why I made EAT in the first place.

"Sleep to Escape"

I have a lot of notebooks here in England filled with my writings. Some of them are from America, some of them are from here. This one is from here, from around late winter of 2010, to be precise. I'm going to transcribe some stuff I wrote in it.

This particular piece is a bit of poetry. Now, I don't claim to be a poet; I may have a distinct poetic flair to my writings, but I'm not, strictly speaking, a poet. But over the years, I've experimented with pretty much everything. This is called "Sleep to Escape."

Don't let them catch you.
Don't let them send you away.
Don't let them convince you
To say "Cut" and end this film.
Instead, hold together for another day.
Love might come this time.
Life might reach fulfillment.

Now, this next bit is written diagonally while "ISOLATION" covers it in giant letters.

A big house full of
wonderful friends and
a lovely wife who does love
you like the sea does the sand.
You get together with Bones every night
and watch your favourite movies with glee
while not a single Other is there to fight.
It's just you, love, and humility.

And then the final verse.

Then you awake
at 7 in the evening
To hear the Head Other yelling.
You close your eyes again and escape once more.
 What an imagination I had back then, huh.

What to do.

Now that we have Built For Two and The Endless Obsession out of the way, it's time to start a new project or two.

I have two choices I'd love to do.

1) On Lizard Bite's Ink, I have made some comments under the pseudonym "The White Jester," as a reference to OH GOD THE RAPTURE IS BURNING as well as to play a foil to his "The Jester" character who I really hate. I really kinda want to make a proper character study blog about The White Jester, the professional troll-slayer who names himself after a Rapture character. It'd be very much similar to the general slenderblog, wherein it's focusing on the narrator and his or her life and how it intersects with the Fears. Like Something Generic and Be Wary, y'know? Hell, I'd love for The White Jester to have interviews and crossovers. I'd love to make fun of every goddamn blog I can find.

2) THE DYING MAN BLOG. Seriously, I want to do this. I can't say how long it'd be, and the chances are it would probably be a short one. But I want to try something akin to CuteWithoutThe's work. Hell, I could theoretically blend the two, but I don't think I'd want to. Yeah, no, I'd rather keep the character study separate from the emotional drama.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

DCA is up to Episode 84.

The next episode will be the final episode of the entire series.

If you want to Archive Binge the series before the finale, goooood luck. Seriously. Eighty-five episodes. By the time you get to the seventh season, though, you're gonna be ready to stop. You'll be like "Okay, there are only eight seasons, and I'm on the seventh. I'm nearly done, right?"

And that's when you notice that Season Seven is to DCA what Act 5 is to Homestuck.

The difference being that I ACTUALLY KNOW WHEN TO END A STORY.

I hate that man too much, I'm sorry.


..I'm done now.
I wrote two and a half more episodes of DCA today. I intend on at least finishing this third before releasing them.

Let me reiterate: I'm almost done with the semi-final episode of the entire show. oh my god

Monday, March 19, 2012

I guess I should be open in public about this.

I feel. ..I mean. Look, it's no secret that The Endless Obsession wasn't quite as great as I'd hoped. And at the same time, the ending to the Birchman guitar duel in Rapture wasn't, either. But I released those both on the same day, and I was half-asleep that day. I wasn't quite ready for two lukewarm receptions in one day.

And it's gotten to me. I feel really weird. I feel.. I dunno.

I want to write stuff people will respect. But I guess I should just stick to the writing part of it. .__.;;

I mean! Writing's all I really do these days, y'know? I like to feel like it's the reason I exist. My raison d'etre. If I didn't write, there would be no point to my life. ..and I mean that. I suck at everything else. You guys might have jobs or school or something, but writing is my job, and writing is my school. I learn from it, and.. hell, I don't think I've learned much from this failure. I think I've just learned that I'm really not all I wished I was. I learned that I've been cocky, just like my Rapture self. And that.. I should just shut up.

Saturday, March 17, 2012


Well. Now I want to write something and don't know what.

Options: Built For Two. Literally nothing is stopping me from just writing the entire blog now. I know what's gonna happen.
Dark Chao Adventures. I'm on Episode 82. I need to finish this thing. 85's the last.
OH GOD THE RAPTURE IS BURNING. ..well, I mean. I can theoretically just write the next log and not release it until the accompaniment video is done. Which is kinda is, but I'm just waiting on some voices.
Topography Genera, yeah no I can easily do this. I've got the next Mordecai answering thing ready. I've got more than that ready. I know where the first movement's going and how it'll end. I think I'm waiting for The Endless Obsession, which I just need two more voices on.
The Parallels: Bright in the Face, okay there is nothing stopping me from writing this, I'm just not writing it.
The Dying Man blog. I'm doing one. But I think I'm waiting for The Endless Obsession first. That's pretty much the introduction of a few more Topography Genera plot elements, including The Dying Man.

And I mean, I could easily do all these right now. Hell, I really do want to do Built For Two and finally show you guys why I started the blog in the first place, why I was really excited about the project. But I mean, it's hard to really focus and want to write. But I'll figure it out.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012


Holy shit, I did it. I made two logs of OH GOD THE RAPTURE IS BURNING. In a row. And they were both surprisingly decent and I am definitely proud of both.

I think I may have even come out of my little bit of writer's block I was having. I mean, it wasn't quite writer's block so much as it was an unfortunate case of "I CAN'T SIT DOWN AND FOCUS ON WRITING AND WHEN I DO IT FEELS FORCED." Because believe me, I was having no trouble coming up with ideas! It was consistently coming up with ideas, ideas that all felt to me like they flowed well, that was the hard part.

But anyhoo, what cured me of this stump this time around was a mixture of things. But I think, mainly, it was inspiration. I watched Edgar Wright's Hot Fuzz and Shaun of the Dead, and.. those films, guys! That director! That style! Those actors! That mixture of comedy and suspense! It's so well-done, it's so admirably imagined, so imaginatively realized! The fact that they are linked by trait and motif as part of a conceptual "Three Flavours Cornetto" trilogy is even more appealing to me!

I mean, I first saw Shaun of the Dead ages ago, and it was appealing to me but it took me a few rewatches to really get it. And now that I do, it fucking leaves me in tears. I mean, the comedy makes me laugh to tears, the connection with the characters makes me want to cry by the end, and the sheer brilliant writing and superb camerawork seriously brings tears to my eyes. I really want to watch Hot Fuzz some more, too, so I can fully appreciate that as well. And I am thrilled to hear that there will be a third film in this trilogy (tentatively titled The World's End).

Basically, I realize that good writing isn't just coming up with bizarre landscapes, tragic character relationships, or original settings. Good writing involves using techniques, on directing your reader to see what you want them to see. It's the little things, the hints that prod our eyes towards the events in the background, not the giant events in the foreground.

To sum it up in a sentence, good writing is not the event, it is the way you frame it.

It's a literal case of "It's about the journey, not the destination, man!" I guess that might be one of the more appealing parts of OH GOD THE RAPTURE IS BURNING; there is so much sheer build-up to the terminal coming of Rapture, yet the story's not about Rapture, the story's about it coming. The story's about everything leading up to it. And I mean everything, it's about the characters sleeping every day, it's about the characters finding cars and stopping for gas, it's about the characters having what is referred to in real-life as "teenage drama," it's about the clothes they wear and the songs they like, it's about how they change and how they stay the same. And it's about the Fears and how eldritch they are, but it's also about how eldritch they aren't, how they're just like us and how they act because they wish they weren't.

I saw Rapture and I didn't just see a cheap genre fiction with sex and violence and scares; I saw a kid with five months to save the world, and I saw him choosing to look for his friends instead of blindly following the Blind Man's Book. I guess this is why people call me a good writer, and why I call myself one.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Finally a new DCA.

I feel this warrants a post here. DCA's eighty-first episode is out now. This is the first episode I've made in almost a year, and guess what? It's one of the last I'll ever make!

I wouldn't recommend that episode being the first DCA-related thing anyone ever reads, though. If you're gonna read any DCA, go to the official site, click the big picture, click on the "Dark Garden/Episodes" link thing, and... OKAY DON'T START WITH EPISODE ONE. o____e OH GOD THAT IS NOT NECESSARY, I DID NOT KNOW HOW TO WRITE WHEN I WAS TEN. If you're gonna try to get into this mammoth of a story, start with Episode 51, "Shade is Cool," the first of Season Seven. There will be references that you won't get, as I play on the established themes of the earlier episodes very much. But just.. bah, I dunno, man!

Just. I'd really love if someone out there were to actually read all this stuff. But it's like getting someone to read Homestuck except it's not popular in the slightest. And it's strictly a text series. But I mean, there's all these episodes, and they suck for the first fifty or so. But you have to read the first fifty or else a lot of plot points won't make sense!

..my point is, Episode 81 is out. The entire show is coming to a close. I am the only human being in the history of my entire memory who has actually read all 81 episodes. Because of an FTP error, you can only read Episodes 80 and 81 on either Facebook or that blog linked in the second sentence.

Nobody's gonna read it, and I accept that. All I can do is keep advertising it.